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Friday, 05 February 2010

  • I am not the life mender

    Father is

    the one that lives in heaven

    the one who created it all

    Him

    He's the life mender

    not me

    I've been taking on a job that has not been mine

    I am tired

    I am giving notice

    To all those who want me to mend their lives

    I can't do it

    I lack the skill

    I lack the expertise

    I lack the strength

    I'm doing good

    to hold my fences together...

    At your next event

    talk to Father

    the one in heaven

    the one who created it all

    He can mend you

    He has the skill

    the expertise

    the strength!

     

     

     

  • The Journey

    One day you finally knew

    what you had to do, and began

    though the voices around you

    kept shouting

    their bad advice--

    though the whole house

    began to tremble

    and you felt the old tug

    at your ankles.

    "Mend my life!"

    each voice cried.

    But you didn't stop

    You knew what you had to do,

    though the wind pried

    with it's stiff fingers

    at the very foundations,

    though their melancholy

    was terrible.

    It was already late

    enough, and a wild night,

    and the road full of fallen \branches and stones

    But little by little,

    as you left their voices behind,

    the stars began to burn

    through the sheets of clouds,

    and there was a new voice

    which you slowly

    recognized as your own,

    that kept you company

    as you stode deeper and deeper into the world

    determined to do

    the only thing you could do

    determined to save

    the only life you could save.

        

                  --Mary Oliver

     

     

Saturday, 29 August 2009

  • ....always playing dumb...

    "Yes, I'm on my way to visit you with Judgment. I'll present compelling evidence against sorcerers, adulterers, liars, those who exploit workers, those who take advantage of widows and orphans, those who are inhospitable to the homeless—anyone and everyone who doesn't honor me." A Message from God-of-the-Angel-Armies.

    "I am God—yes, I Am. I haven't changed. And because I haven't changed, you, the descendants of Jacob, haven't been destroyed. You have a long history of ignoring my commands. You haven't done a thing I've told you. Return to me so I can return to you," says God-of-the-Angel-Armies.

       "You ask, 'But how do we return?'

Friday, 07 August 2009

  • Dressed to Seduce

    1-5 Dear friend, do what I tell you; treasure my careful instructions.
    Do what I say and you'll live well.
       My teaching is as precious as your eyesight—guard it!
    Write it out on the back of your hands;
       etch it on the chambers of your heart.
    Talk to Wisdom as to a sister.
       Treat Insight as your companion.
    They'll be with you to fend off the Temptress—
       that smooth-talking, honey-tongued Seductress.

     6-12 As I stood at the window of my house
       looking out through the shutters,
    Watching the mindless crowd stroll by,
       I spotted a young man without any sense
    Arriving at the corner of the street where she lived,
       then turning up the path to her house.
    It was dusk, the evening coming on,
       the darkness thickening into night.
    Just then, a woman met him—
       she'd been lying in wait for him, dressed to seduce him.
    Brazen and brash she was,
       restless and roaming, never at home,
    Walking the streets, loitering in the mall,
       hanging out at every corner in town.

     13-20 She threw her arms around him and kissed him,
       boldly took his arm and said,
    "I've got all the makings for a feast—
       today I made my offerings, my vows are all paid,
    So now I've come to find you,
       hoping to catch sight of your face—and here you are!
    I've spread fresh, clean sheets on my bed,
       colorful imported linens.
    My bed is aromatic with spices
       and exotic fragrances.
    Come, let's make love all night,
       spend the night in ecstatic lovemaking!
    My husband's not home; he's away on business,
       and he won't be back for a month."

     21-23 Soon she has him eating out of her hand,
       bewitched by her honeyed speech.
    Before you know it, he's trotting behind her,
       like a calf led to the butcher shop,
    Like a stag lured into ambush
       and then shot with an arrow,
    Like a bird flying into a net
       not knowing that its flying life is over.

     24-27 So, friends, listen to me,
       take these words of mine most seriously.
    Don't fool around with a woman like that;
       don't even stroll through her neighborhood.
    Countless victims come under her spell;
       she's the death of many a poor man.
    She runs a halfway house to hell,
       fits you out with a shroud and a coffin.

    King Solomon
    the 7th proverb


    translation:

    The Message (MSG)

Friday, 31 July 2009

  • Respectable men...

    This morning I was reading Proverbs 31 about the virtuous woman. Today when I read it something caught my eye and challenged me to a new way of thinking. Always before I marveled at this genuinely good woman and made up my mind to imitate her. I read about her husband but I was always so busy pondering her goodness that I never gave him full thought. Today I stopped and thought in depth about what verse 23 says:
    ***
    Her husband is known in the gates,
    When he sits among the elders of the land.

    ***
    How could I have missed that? I' have been asking Heavenly Father what exactly constitutes a good man. My heart is unreliable, deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked. I can make myself believe everything good about anything if I want it bad enough. What I imagined to be a "good" man continuously fell short of Heavenly Father's standard. I have been thinking and thinking about this for quite a few weeks and Heavenly Father was kind enough to show me the wisdom that I needed. My conclusion: A good man is respected. He has the respect of people who are leaders. They value his opinions, his way of dressing, his ethics, his treatment of his family, his standards, what he has to say, everything that he is. They respect him because he is respectable. He has high standards. He is kind. He does not think of his wife as a sex object or a trophy. He respects her. He loves her because she is good. He loves his children. He loves people. He has a job that is respectable and worthy of honor. He works everyday and works hard. He does not expect a woman to carry him. He takes full responsibility for his family. He respects his wife's feelings. He comes home and acknowledges the existence of his children . When he talks to his children and plays with them he is gentle with them and genuinely enjoys interacting with them. He is respectable! I have to face it my standards have been low. I have allowed myself to think highly of men who do not possess even half of these standards. I have smoothed things over in my mind. Fantasized, made myself believe that somehow time will make everything alright. Telling myself "this guy is not so bad he will change if I'm good", as if "good" is contagious and can be caught like an illness. What am I thinking? Heavenly Father's  standards are high. They are not caught, happened upon , learned at the last minute. They are lived and most definitely lived more then, "three long weeks". What have I been thinking? This is a matter of happiness or endless disappointment. How could I have missed it seeing that I have read Proverbs 31 so many times? I have come to believe that it has been due to the condition of my heart. I have been deceiving myself and not believing that there could possibly be anyone left who is absolutely respectable. I've been wanting to settle because I have wanted a man right now instead of wanting to wait for Heavenly Father's timing and respectable man. Respectable, that is the standard! Respectable! And in case you are anything like me and need a detailed, exhaustive description of what respectable means here it is straight from Merriam-Webster:

    ** Respectable
    1
    : worthy of respect : estimable
    2: decent or correct in character or behavior : proper

    ** Respect
    1
    : a relation or reference to a particular thing or situation respect to an earlier plan>
    2
    : an act of giving particular attention : consideration
    3 a
    : high or special regard : esteem b: the quality or state of being esteemed

    ** Estimable
    1: capable of being estimated estimable amount>
    2archaic : valuable
    3: worthy of esteem

    **Proper
    1 a: referring to one individual only b: belonging to one : own c: appointed for the liturgy of a particular day d: represented heraldically in natural color
    2: belonging characteristically to a species or individual : peculiar
    3chiefly dialect : good-looking, handsome
    4: very good : excellent
    5chiefly British : utter, absolute
    6: strictly limited to a specified thing, place, or idea proper>
    7 a: strictly accurate : correct barchaic : virtuous, respectable c: strictly decorous : genteel
    8: marked by suitability, rightness, or appropriateness : fit

    ***
    **My prayer
    Thank you Jesus for leading me down the right path. Thank you for saving me from making the biggest mistake of my life. Help me to wait on the man who is worthy of your respect first of all and then mine and others. Help me to think about truth and purity and respectability instead of fantasizing about castles and knights and white horses. Help me Jesus and save me from myself. Thanks.
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  • I am: full of wonder, outspoken, single but not lonely, mommy to everyone all my life. I am happy, peaceful, and greatly loved. I love people! I really believe you are precious! Jesus is my best friend, let me clarify. I happen to believe what he says about peace and goodwill toward all man. I also believe that Jesus knew how to love people even the ones no-one else wanted to love. He spoke mercy and confronted hateful, ignorant bigots with truth and thats what got him killed. Because he is my best friend if I hear your mouth speaking hate and stupid, ignorant things I will get in your face. And no I did not call myself a Christian, wouldn't want to embarass my best friend. Welcome, leave a footprint, feel free to discuss, I am listening.

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